oliver s. carlos

10:15 AM
at my desk
ing buldit ku e ne man kantu ning lamesa
a kikinyuran mu andat lumabas ka

e la naman mousepad deng pago cu't brasu
a pikapa-kapa at sasalatan mu

deng pwad at butit ku e la rugu diyaryu
a alus mabura keng pamanyipat mu

lalung e la armrest ning swivel chair deng susu ku
a banggan-banggan na ning malikut mung siku

e mu ku dadalan keng pa-dinner-dinner
nung 'yagkas mya kaybat ytang let's go somewhere

      Tandanan mu babayi ku, wangis nacu ning indu mu!
perturbed, trying to find comfort
in that solitary room
all she wants is to bury her face
in the warm, soft pillow.

her heart mourns—
in silence—
there are bruises and wounds
inflicted upon her battered body.

with dignity shattered,
her essence as a woman painfully craves
for the fragrance
drawn out from the flowers of human respect.

she keeps on asking
until when she will suffer?
will there ever be time
for mending a broken heart?
will there be a place for forgiveness?
for healing?

hatred is now a cloud
shrouding each ray
of her once unconditional love;
and as she hears his dreadful voice
at the other side of the door,
her tired bleeding heart
has shut every emotions connected to him.

that door will no longer be opened.

to a jaded, tuckered heart
there's freedom in letting go
—Posted: 7:41 PM 3/7/10 by eK! | Post Your Comment!

About the author. Oliver Carlos was born and grew up in the town of San Luis, Pampanga. He studied AB Political Science at the University of the East in Manila, but did not manage to finish it, not because of some difficulties, but rather because of his love of his country. He was kicked out of school because he spent most of his time in the streets with other nationalist youths, fighting against the rotten political system. He chose to stay in other people's houses and studied in the hinterlands with the poor farmers. In doing so, he met his future better half and companion in life. Now, he is one of the OFWs, trying his luck in foreign places to make both ends meet and to get his family out of poverty. Amidst all this, he keeps on looking back at his beloved country, especially his province, Pampanga.
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